I’m back!!! (I think.)
So I got an email this week to say that this domain is up for renewal and I did consider just letting it expire and shutting down my blog. I’ve not written a post in years and I’m not even sure what my excuse for that is. Possibly a combination of how busy I was, how much effort blogging took and losing interest in the topics that I was usually writing about.
We went into lockdown about 12-ish weeks ago and that should have been the ideal time to revitalise my blog and get writing again. I was still working from home, but once I finished for the day all I could think of was how many hours I’d have to kill before I could go to bed. Despite this, and watching everything on Netflix, Disney+ and Amazon Prime I still couldn’t bring myself to start writing again.
Before lockdown, I had something on every evening of the week and my weekend was non-stop. Between football training & matches, scout meetings & camping, powerlifting and muay-thai I didn’t really have a quiet moment. To go from always on the go to having literally nothing to do I was definitely lost.
Social media made everything worse. Not a day went by where there wasn’t a post telling me that I should come out of lockdown with a new skill, or fitter, or a better person. Mental Health is something that hasn’t been talked about during this pandemic, all of the focus has been on people’s physical health and protecting that (which is so so important,) but as a country that already has a stigma around mental health, it has been pushed even further down the priority list.
I think nearly everyone’s mental health has taken a hit during the lockdown, whether that is in the form of anxiety, depression, problems sleeping, panicking more, feeling overwhelmed, feeling more stressed than usual, the list goes on and on. It can manifest itself in many ways; I’ve been feeling overwhelmed for probably the last 3 months and for a week or two there wasn’t a day went by where I didn’t cry at least once. The culmination of feeling overwhelmed actually presented itself as a panic attack. I was at the till in Aldi, after doing a monthly shop and I couldn’t remember my pin for any of my cards! The guy on the till was so nice and said to just pop back over to him when I figured it out. Thankfully I had Adam’s card and could use that, but crying in Aldi was a low point of this lockdown.
I’ve been feeling much better the last few weeks and now that I’m able to get back to powerlifting I feel like my life is starting to get a bit more structured. I’ve also really enjoyed being able to cook more, especially being able to experiment with some more vegetarian & vegan recipes. I find cooking very relaxing and a way to zone out. I picked up some more recipe books this week to try out a couple more recipes. Eating healthy has definitely helped with my mental health and feeling good from the inside out.
With none of my volunteering activities coming back anytime soon I think now might be the time to get back in the groove of blogging. I’m going to try to set aside some time every week to just write. Just write whatever comes to mind instead of trying to force content. I might also give my blog a bit of a facelift as well. This post might seem a bit rambly and all over the place but it was pretty much a brain dump or really more of a feelings dump. I’d like to say I know what my next post is going to be but it will as much as a surprise to me as it will be for you guys!
If you’re struggling with your mental health the best thing to do is to talk to someone, anyone! A problem shared is a problem halved. Wanting to talk about how you feel is not a weakness; the person you reach out to could also be feeling the same way!